Depression
It's me again,
I'm not gonna say i suffered from depression, but it seems like i do.
It hurts.
So freaking damn hurts.
Everything can break your heart.
You don't know you are so depressed until your friends said that you have staring into a wall.
You want to cry but you can't. No one ever ask me if i okay. Because on the outside, i'm just a bubbly happy girl, i'm scared they will leave me eventually, when they found out.
Some says it's a mask. Pretending to be happy. Faking a smile. Hold back the tears.
It's fine, no one knows.
I'm drowning in my own thoughts.
I'm suffocating in my own air
People don't understand. They always questioning.
All of them was like,
"Why are you depressed? Look at how amazing your life is"
Were they tried to question
"why do you have asthma? look at all this air"
We will say "I'm fine" all the time.
without realising how many times our wrist pulsating to be cut.
how many times we tried to tie a rope,
how does it feel to jump off the roof.
Just to see is there anyone who really cares about us.
As a high school teenage girl, i'm kinda of hope for my school and parents. Try to pass exam with really flying colors. Straight A+ in an exam. We have 10 subjects in SPM. Being a student who really is an idiot, it's really stressful.
I will open up more about my life in my next post,
Honestly,
part of me want to die tonight,
part of me want it to be an accident,
and part of me wants somebody to notice and stop me.
I suffered alone in my mind, that full of sadness and pain and probably the darkest and thorny, hurting me every time i moves my body.
Depression cannot be translated into words, you need to help depressed people. Stand with them through thick and thin. Through all the hardness. Fighting their own minds. Convince them that everything will be fine. Before it was too late, before it's gone, before it turns pitch black.
Do not consider a people with a smile plastered on their face 24/7 don't suffered this kind of situation. Always care, always notice because the first step can change everything
I'm not gonna say i suffered from depression, but it seems like i do.
It hurts.
So freaking damn hurts.
Everything can break your heart.
You don't know you are so depressed until your friends said that you have staring into a wall.
You want to cry but you can't. No one ever ask me if i okay. Because on the outside, i'm just a bubbly happy girl, i'm scared they will leave me eventually, when they found out.
Some says it's a mask. Pretending to be happy. Faking a smile. Hold back the tears.
It's fine, no one knows.
I'm drowning in my own thoughts.
I'm suffocating in my own air
People don't understand. They always questioning.
All of them was like,
"Why are you depressed? Look at how amazing your life is"
Were they tried to question
"why do you have asthma? look at all this air"
We will say "I'm fine" all the time.
without realising how many times our wrist pulsating to be cut.
how many times we tried to tie a rope,
how does it feel to jump off the roof.
Just to see is there anyone who really cares about us.
As a high school teenage girl, i'm kinda of hope for my school and parents. Try to pass exam with really flying colors. Straight A+ in an exam. We have 10 subjects in SPM. Being a student who really is an idiot, it's really stressful.
I will open up more about my life in my next post,
Honestly,
part of me want to die tonight,
part of me want it to be an accident,
and part of me wants somebody to notice and stop me.
I suffered alone in my mind, that full of sadness and pain and probably the darkest and thorny, hurting me every time i moves my body.
Depression cannot be translated into words, you need to help depressed people. Stand with them through thick and thin. Through all the hardness. Fighting their own minds. Convince them that everything will be fine. Before it was too late, before it's gone, before it turns pitch black.
Do not consider a people with a smile plastered on their face 24/7 don't suffered this kind of situation. Always care, always notice because the first step can change everything
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